Tag: spiritual growth

Growth

I sit here thinking about my past. Not dwelling on the hard things but instead looking back with pride at the growth I have gone through. The times I have said, I am done feeling this way and did something about it. 

It wasn’t easy but it was so worth it! The pain I felt while growing was minuscule compared to what the pain could have been had I not done anything. 

So many times, I held onto pain longer than I needed to. The fear of facing the darkness appeared to be too much. Too painful. Too overwhelming. Really it was the fear of the unknown. I was never taught how to feel pain to release it.  Even psychiatrists and therapists didn’t teach me. I had to figure it out on my own. 

It’s funny because I am now learning about alchemy and I realize I have been doing it all along. I am learning more and fine tuning my practice but it is comforting knowing I have the ability within me. And so do you. 

I’m hosting a workshop starting March 26 called Lasting Growth 5 Step Workshop. It’s all online and biweekly. I’m excited to share with others the 5 steps I still use to make changes in my life. If you are interested, email me at NikkyNicoleMeBeingMe@gmail.com with the subject Lasting Growth 5 Step Workshop. Let me know you’re in!

Healing is Not an End Goal

We live in a world of right and wrong, black and white, achieve and fail. When it comes to healing we are expected to heal and be done but when we don’t heal, what then? Are we failures? 

I felt like a failure after CJ, my third child, was born. Around 8 months, I was struggling with severe postpartum depression. It got so bad that I made the decision to quit breastfeeding. That helped significantly with the postpartum depression but I was still stuck in depression. I felt like such a failure!

See I have worked on my mental health for YEARS! We’re talking over a decade and a half. I should be healed by now. I realized I had to go back to the basics which included releasing the shame I was feeling. I went through the trusted steps I had used multiple times to slowly pull myself out of it.

What I have learned since then, is that healing is a spiral journey. We work through something and then it comes back around. We get a little break and then we are called to go deeper but this time around, you are not going into it the same person as before. This time, you are wiser. 

Keep doing the work. Each time it gets easier as long as we do not resist it. It returns to teach us something new. Something we were not ready to know before. 

Give yourself grace for not being “perfect.” Remind yourself you are loved and accepted as you are, the journey you are on is an experience to learn, grow, and live.