We live in a world of right and wrong, black and white, achieve and fail. When it comes to healing we are expected to heal and be done but when we don’t heal, what then? Are we failures?
I felt like a failure after CJ, my third child, was born. Around 8 months, I was struggling with severe postpartum depression. It got so bad that I made the decision to quit breastfeeding. That helped significantly with the postpartum depression but I was still stuck in depression. I felt like such a failure!
See I have worked on my mental health for YEARS! We’re talking over a decade and a half. I should be healed by now. I realized I had to go back to the basics which included releasing the shame I was feeling. I went through the trusted steps I had used multiple times to slowly pull myself out of it.
What I have learned since then, is that healing is a spiral journey. We work through something and then it comes back around. We get a little break and then we are called to go deeper but this time around, you are not going into it the same person as before. This time, you are wiser.
Keep doing the work. Each time it gets easier as long as we do not resist it. It returns to teach us something new. Something we were not ready to know before.
Give yourself grace for not being “perfect.” Remind yourself you are loved and accepted as you are, the journey you are on is an experience to learn, grow, and live.
NikkyNicole #mebeingme 