I saw a shirt that said “It’s fine, I’m fine, Everything is fine” the character on it was definitely not fine. I showed it to Chris and told him I needed this shirt because this is me right now. We both laughed.
I couldn’t get it out of my mind and was thinking about it while driving to work.
“It’s fine, I’m fine, Everything is fine.”
“It’s fine, I’m fine, Everything is fine.”
“It’s fine, I’m fine, Everything is fine.”
“It’s fine, I’m fine, Everything is fine.”
Am I fine?
Am I truly fine?
I had to answer myself honestly because “fine” was not the truth. The truth is, I am currently not fine.
I am not okay.
And that is okay.
I know I will be okay.
But today I am not okay.
Life has thrown me another curveball. I will knock it out of the park but to do that, I need to be honest with how I feel. I need to connect myself (the bat) with my emotions (the ball). (See Chris, baseball is rubbing off on me, lol.)
Once I admitted I was not okay, I felt the weight come off my shoulders. I was using so much energy trying to be “okay” and now I was free to use that energy anyway I needed to. Today, it was to get through work.
This is what radical acceptance allows me to:
- Accept the situation that has happened
- Accept how I feel about the situation
- Process my feelings
- Handle what needs to be handled with a clear mind
When we try to ignore our feelings, they stick with us longer. The past then follows us and makes decisions for us. This can cause us to be triggered or make decisions that do not benefit us. Eating a whole cake, though sounds fun, usually isn’t so fun once fully consumed.
By validating and processing our emotions, we are able to move forward. We decide how we want to feel about a situation rather than the past deciding for us. It takes work but I find, as soon as I admit to how I truly feel, the healing process has already begun.
I’m not doing so good today.
And that is okay.
Tomorrow is a new day.
A fresh start to play.
NikkyNicole #mebeingme 