The Start of My Journey into the Mandala

My search into spirituality started during my healing processes. About a year and a half ago I had gotten to a point in my healing journey that conventional therapy was no longer working. Not that it didn’t help me, it did, immensely. I highly recommend finding a therapist that you trust (you may have to meet with a few before you find the right person for you). My therapist did an amazing job and that is why I ended up having to move on.

There was so much more that I wanted to do, that I felt called to do but also felt something holding me back. It was like it was deeply rooted with in. Through my learning, I found that we have programming within us that came from our parents, grandparents and so on. This includes unnecessary fears, repeated actions, even attracting the wrong types of people. Now don’t start with the “I guess I am born this way and there is nothing I can do”. The key is to not settle for the ordinary or what appears to be comfortable.

My search for healing and a deeper spiritual connection has recently lead me to the book Wisdom Rising: Journey into the Mandala of the Empowered Feminine, by Lama Tsultrim Allione. She dives deep into the feminine energy to heal. For years, the feminine energy has been pushed away. Told to shut up or called witchcraft. The empowered feminine in most recent time has been called nasty. But no longer are we taking offense to name calling but instead embracing it as a badge of honor.

It is within the feminine energy that we can heal emotional traumas and reprogram habits. So I am going to take you on my journey through the five Dakini families. Each week I will focus on one family and work through the obstructions. As I was reading the book, I saw so much of myself in each family. Most only relate to a couple but I found myself connecting with each family. It was so eye opening and started to release some tension that I didn’t even know what there.

The five families are Buddha, Vajra, Ratna, Padma, and Karma. Each has their unique description, encumbered pattern, and a wisdom we receive when we work through the obstruction. Having started with the Buddha Dakini, this work is going to be challenging but oh so enlightening. If you would like to join me, please check out Lama Tsultrim Allione’s book. I believe this will be a book I read again and again.

Last night I was reading The Gospel of Thomas and legion 2 connected with me and this spiritual journey I am on:

Yeshua said: Whoever searches must continue to search until they find. When they find, they will be disturbed, and being disturbed, they will marvel and will reign over All.

Search because this gives our lives meaning. When we search we will find. When we find we will be disturbed because it forces us to question what we thought we knew. But then we will marvel at what we have found, connecting us with the universe, the one the reigns over all. From there, sit with God and what you have just learned.

Keep seeking God, Goddess, the universe. Don’t allow yourself to become complacent in thinking you know. Because when you find, you will then know and realize that you never knew and there is more yet to know.

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Continually learning about myself and the world around me. I have recently realized that we are all connected spiritually with each other and nature. Tapping into that connection has brought more joy and curiosity to me.

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